5. Seeking Solace

Another cup of
cold milk today -
cause there's
nothing better
to avoid duties
than drinking
all the time.
I wish it was hot
or it was cacao,
but I can afford only
this substitute of
husher and sweetener.
I'm on a diet -
I avoid pleasure
and all of you.

A small kitten adds charm
to the soothing picture
of me sitting on
an uncomfortable chair
near not burning chimney.
The little creature
is the only one,
who feels that
there's something
wrong with me.
But it's not enough:
it's an animal,
understanding even less
than a girl living
in the fantasies
of fairytales
and movies.